If I'm Being Honest . . .

I changed my little blurb to the right.  Over there under "LAURA".  If you're on a smart phone you have to scroll to the end of the page to see it, so I'll copy and paste the blurb here for you folks.

A place to share the process. This blog is not a marketing tool or an additional way to show off, but rather a space to be honest about the triumphs and trials of my daily life as an artist and mama. Writing motivates and refreshes me.

The reason I'm thinking this today is I've been struggling lately. Sometimes I'm hesitant to share this stuff on my blog because I want to appear "professional" and put-together. I worry a potential customer/licensor will read this and not want to work with me.  

But that's not what this particular space is about.

 I've been pretty discouraged regarding my art, and how I'd hoped to be further along by now.  I'd really like to be contributing more to my family's income with this, but I'm just not. A lot of times in the past few weeks I've wanted to just quit spending my precious free time on this art thing and do something else.

And the social media thing can be tricky, because I get super inspired by other artists, but on the other hand I can also get super jealous at their success.

So I've been feeling discouraged.  I could talk about it for awhile but I'll leave it at that.

One thing that encourages me is scrolling through my own profile.  I really like what I've been drawing. I think I'm good at it.  I want to grow, but I think what I have done is good and fun.

One of my faves from the 100 Day Project.

So I've decided for now to keep showing up.  Keep showing up to make art and look for ways to grow it as a business.  To-do lists and schedules help.  Even when I'm feeling unmotivated, I can stick to a schedule (like writing a blog post on Wednesdays, or spending at least 10 minutes drawing everyday).

And really, I have a fantastic life.  Even though I wish I had more time to learn and create and work,  I love getting to spend my days with this guy and wouldn't trade it for anything.

It's astounding how much I love him.  You always hear that will happen when you have kids, but you never really know until you know first hand.